h u m b l e d

Last week I wrote about a strange and shame-filled experience I had.
As promised, here is the followup post further explaining something God revealed through all the j u m b l e.

While I sat in my room tearfully reading and re-reading Psalm 28 God told me something.

Even without His audible voice He clearly looked me in the heart and said

"You are completely helpless without Me, dear."

and although this may sound a bit harsh

it's not.

It is simply the pure and undivided truth.

I often like to think that I am a tough lady.

That I am independent and able to defend myself.

Well it has come to light that I am not.

It has come to light that I am very, very weak and helpless.

My flesh is just that.

Flesh.

Stuff.

Meat.

The last time I checked meat is kind of like a beached whale.

Helpless, lame and easily broken.

That is me.

Helpless.

Lame.

And most definitely easily broken.

Not only does this describe me in my own frailty but...

this also describes you.

I don't claim to know your life story.

(Although if you'd like to share it I'd be glad to hear it:)

But I will claim a strong belief in human weakness and imperfection.

This is a pretty hopeless discovery.

The discovery that we're not strong enough.

Despite the fact that we are told everyday that we can do it by ourselves. 

That we need no one.

That Saturday that I had that certain experience it was as clear as purified water that

I need only One thing.

One presence in my life to fill all of the holes that I leave empty.

In my weakness He is even stronger.

If I had ever doubted my God I doubt no longer.

The day He saved my life all doubt was removed concerning how powerful He truly is.

Sitting in His Mighty and Sovereign  presence my level of humility soared. 

How could I not be humbled? 

I was at my end.

I had nothing left.

He had everything.

And He lovingly offered it to me.

I found humility because I caught just a glimpse of my Kings glory.

Beside Him I could feel nothing but humility.

His presence humbled me to my core and has thankfully continued to do so.   

Though I am weak, He is strong.

2 Corinthians 12:9 

But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

x o,

Hannah Dorothy